Are you my Soul Mate?
A couple of days ago I found out on facebook that two of my friends, both of whom I have known since 4th grade, have started going out. Me, being on the opposite side of the earth, knew nothing, heard nothing, and could say nothing but “WTF” as a fb comment on their synchronized profile and cover photos.
Because seriously, WTF. Call me jealous and I will happily admit it. Lord pray they don’t see this post….the question faces me everyday as I watch girlfriends find bf here and there, and I can only “‘ello? where the f is mine!?” And the only answer I can hear from all around is that the time hasn’t come and the right person hasn’t come yet.
But what why hasn’t it happened yet? I have known these two friends for a very long time, I have deemed the guy as perfectly my type, someone who fulfills everything on my list a bf should be, and the girl is one the most loving and caring person I have ever meet with a beautiful voice to boot. Though I wish them well and good luck, there’s that voice in the back of my head whispering and beating them and myself down. Crushing any dreams I had of finding someone to like me back.
At that instant when I saw their fb status, I kept telling myself that god has a plan, god has a soul mate for me, without really believing it but praying that it would be true. And then another friend, bless her soul, reposted a blog post titled, “My Husband is not my Soul Mate” on fb. Dear fb, please stop crushing my dreams. Because apparently isn’t enough for you to remind me of my singleness but also to crush all aspirations that there might be a significant other out there for me.
But my dear friend, for seriously bless her soul, in reposting that post taught me something so incredibly important; that love isn’t planned or sketched like a building on a blue print, but love is a choice. A choice we make to become more like Christ, a choice we must have the courage to take, a choice that our god already knows, but a choice nonetheless that we have to make.
And today I realize that love is earned, love can be right next to me, love is not thinking it will last, love is courage and love is never planned. So today, I live without a soul mate but with some damn hot, nice, amazing friends.